7 days

and no contact .. i know its for the best .. and it was my choice to finally end it. But it still hurts and I still think of him all the time. I know its so stupid to hear women say, "but i love him". I dont even know what i love about him any more. I think it is more that I loved his promises of what the future would bring. I loved the promise that things would get better. I loved the possibility of greater things. But tomorrow never came and the changes would never be. The love faded. at least I know that i no longer liked him. I no longer wanted the man he was. Was it someone that he became or was he always like this. In the beginning it was too easy to be blinded by the truth. 4 years of just enjoying the pleasure of non commitment. No pressure. Too easy, yes I made it way to easy to be fooled. Now with 2 kids, I see that I did it all wrong.