facing disgrace

In order to change, someone must proclaim a change in you. In order to be different someone else must see a difference in you. Without the views of others, you are nothing .. so here i am trying to change the views of others in order to be a better person.

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Location: Texas, United States

Im an easy going open minded person just trying to enjoy life reguardless of how many bumps my be on the road. oh and i also have a sexual addiction.

5.18.2006

Game night ..

15 games in 10 minutes .. now thats a record .. Okay so the other team didnt show and it gave us an automatic 15 games. But we'll take it!
Im sitting at the bar and got hit on .. by a chic .. blond and old.. at least she was warn. It wasnt nice. She was staring at me the whole time i was there. Ive seen her there before and she has even felt me up a time or two. Always claiming to be checking out my shirt .. as she grabs my breast. All i have ever done is take a stand back and look at her as if she was crazy. I knew she was at least drunk. So tonight, she stares at me for about 2 hours and then comes to introduce herself to my teammates. I looked away while she spoke but she made it a point to come to me and talk to me about her nothing life. I didnt care much........... and i thought it showed. She continued to bore me with her unlived life. She is a housewife. Her children are grown, the bar is all she has left when her husband is away. she talked and talked .. all about nothing. I get up to leave, she wants to buy me a drink. i told her i wasnt drinking tonight and was on my way out. She asked to give me a ride... i shook my keys in her face and said no thanks. She tried to walk me out... i slipped away while she went to the bar. Was that mean?
It wasnt her that made me leave .. it was G ..................the most ignorant person i have met while playing on thursdays. The first time i met him .. two season ago, he made a joke about date raping his team mates. I didnt find the humor and told him so. He was shocked that someone had ever stood up to him. I left him speechless and i finished my 5 minute speech on how rape was not a joke and i didnt find the reason for it to be used as one. He said he was sorry and looked at his shocked teammates also staring at me in amazement. i thought the night had been forgotten. It wasnt all that serious .. i made my stand on rape clear .. it wasnt a joke. The end. So i thought ... the next time we played against each other he brought it up again, claiming that he didnt realize people were so serious .. About rape i asked him? yea some people find that rape is a serious issue in america and because of the humor others see in it, it will always be a problem. he told the story to all the people that were not present for it .. the night was over .. and i thought the topic was finished.. until we met again ..
Its been at least 8 months since then and every time i see him, he brings it up. My stand remains. I dont find humor in rape nor do i believe it should be the butt of any jokes. Again tonight he told the story to all who havent heard it. And even to those that were there. He claims that he cant believe i stood up to him. I told him that i did ... and to know that i havent backed down yet .. nor will i no matter how many times he talks about it. When will it be over. The worst part? he makes himself seem like an idiot .. and i find him even more offensive now than before. For every word he says, i find something equally disturbing as the rape joke. tonight it was about homesexuals and how he would kill his son if he turned gay. Ignorance. Pure ignorance. I wanted to tell him to shut up .. but i was too tired.. so i came home.
Nothing going on to hold my interst anyhow. So off to bed and work in the am.
we are now officially in the playoffs.

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