Have you read it?

Huanted by Chuck Palahniuk

Its the first I have heard of him. First I've heard of this book. I am half way through it and already amazed at the detail and talent of this writer. Its gross yet unbelievable. Its a train wreck you can't stop looking at. Everytime I put this book down I am forced to pick it up again just to see what else he has imagined, what else has been printed on these pages? What else could these characters do to each other and to themselves. The characters make me feel sane.. I love it.

One line stays in my mind. (this isnt really a blog about the book .. but more about my thoughts)

"The difference in how you look and how you see yourself

is enough to kill most people"

Its a scary thought. I find that most things that people would love to change are the hardest to accept about themselves. Too ashamed... to far into denial or just simply scared of themselves. Its enough to kill most people. the path of how you portray yourself and who you are never seem to meet. Always spending your time running from yourself. If i were to watch myself or my life on video i too would freak. I know what i am, who i am .. but still i have only come to terms with it recently. Before i could change i had to first accept. I am an addict. I have an addictive personality and compulsive behaviors. i am random in my thoughts and weakened by my passions. least likely to make commitments and yet im loyal to my addictions. (loyal to my addictions?? sounded good in my head. i suppose its the loyalty that transforms into an addiction) At least I am no longer running.