facing disgrace

In order to change, someone must proclaim a change in you. In order to be different someone else must see a difference in you. Without the views of others, you are nothing .. so here i am trying to change the views of others in order to be a better person.

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Location: Texas, United States

Im an easy going open minded person just trying to enjoy life reguardless of how many bumps my be on the road. oh and i also have a sexual addiction.

4.26.2006

Happy Anniversary .. !!!

1 year .. since my divorce. okay so not really a happy occassion. But an anniversary none the less. A divorsary. The last year has been a train wreck... After my divorce L stepped into my life. fell in love with him instantly. Love at first sight and i didnt even believe in that. well when that ended with a note on my couch saying he was leaving .. P stepped up to plate but he went off for work just a couple of months ago. Odd thing is .. not one fight .. not one arguement .. no major disagreements.. just splitting up. Relationships end. Are relationships coming with expiration dates now? Stay together a few months and move on. Sadly enough its not even moving on to something better.. just move on. L decided that he may still care for his X but never picked things back up with her. So he is single .... and apparently depressed about the whole situation. On occassion i get a text message or an email saying how much he missed me and he still loved me. P just decided that he no longer like corpus .. so he moved to another state... oh what fun. havent heard from him in about 4 weeks .. so im not really sure how he is.. good i can only hope. My ex husband .. well even as great friends hasnt called in about 3 months. Didnt even say goodbye. I know its weird .. he is my ex-husband .. why would he say goodbye? well we were best friends .. from beginning to well apparently now the end. Stayed friends through the divorce and after. When his mother became ill .. i helped him get to indiana. Stayed in touch up until january. He said he would call me back .. and well that was the end of it. Nothing more.. nothing less. Just nothing at all. Expirations??.... its sad. A friend of mine called me up .. she is engaged. known him for 8 months.. and ready for marriage .. but she worked it all up in her head.. they will move in together in a month or so .. see how that works out. If and she stressed .. IF they make it .. married in 2008. if not oh well .. no big loss. No big loss? what is wrong in society today .. are we just blind to commitment? why are we so open to change and the idea of short term affection? Short term love?
if it works good.. if not .. oh well .. just move on to the next love of my life..
cause really .. its only the first marriage ..
its the third one that matter.. how does the saying go .. third one is the charm?
Short term love... well happy divorsary.

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