Baby Boy

9 lbs 2 oz ..and hes gorgous .... the hospital stay was horrid while P bitched and moaned the entire time ... He left the day after my release and I havent heard from him since. At least nothing that would benifit me. He does text me to let me know he is sick .. text me to let me know his dad has been diagnosed with cancer ... expects me to care .. never once asking about me or the kids. How did i find him? Why did i fall in love again? What exactly was it that i loved about him to begin with? How do I move on from here?
So many unanswered question .. so many unmanageable feelings. I am lost! I dont even know what to do except i know i have to "stay strong" for the kids ~ and how do i do that when i feel so empty?