facing disgrace

In order to change, someone must proclaim a change in you. In order to be different someone else must see a difference in you. Without the views of others, you are nothing .. so here i am trying to change the views of others in order to be a better person.

Name:
Location: Texas, United States

Im an easy going open minded person just trying to enjoy life reguardless of how many bumps my be on the road. oh and i also have a sexual addiction.

11.08.2009

these are the facts ...

and nothing but the facts ... (as I will have to present to the lawyer I have been threatened with)

I met P online around February 2004 … continued a very very casual relationship .. he didn’t want a girlfriend I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend … he made it clear he didn’t want children and I was told that I couldn’t have children. The relationship worked for us at the time. He worked at various jobs keeping him away or on call 24 hours a day .. or a least that is what I was told. During the coarse of being together he rarely shared anything about himself. He did happen to mention that he did have a son. Was born when he was 16 or 17 years of age. He told me that he never mentioned the birth of his child to anyone, not even his parents. The child passed away around 18 months. ( I am not sure of the specific age) I do remember that even though we were getting closer at that time I also started to question his honesty. I had a hard time understanding how someone could have a child and not share the information with his parents.

April 23 2007 –home test positive
P's reaction asking me to have an abortion said he didn’t want anything to do with me and having a child and that it would be the worse thing to happen to him. He said that if I had the child I would never see him again.
April 26 2007 – blood test results positive
Hadnt heard from P and when I text him he said he was not going to have anything to do with me.
October 3 2007 – Sonogram showed having a girl sent P a text got no response
December 11, 2007 – baby was born, I sent P a picture and message did not get a response. Later when I did hear from him he said that he didn’t get the picture but still didn’t want anything to do with her or me.
June 5 2008 – received a text from P asking how baby was doing .. sent him a picture and no other response
July 7 2008 – received a text from P, asking if we could work things out. Talked on the phone later that night
July 10, 2008 – P was back from out of town and came over to meet baby.
July 18, 2008 – met his mom
July 22, 2008 _- had lunch with P and mom… was given $35 to help with what baby may need.
August 5, 2008 – P started working
August 9, 2008 – first fight
August 18, 2008 – P quit working
August 22, 2008 – $75 child care/$180 food and clothes
September 8, 2008 – Broke up/September 25, 2008 – back together
September 28, 2008 – broke up/October 4, 2008 – back together
October 16 – broke up (several fights in between and on several occasions he stated that he didn’t want anything to do with me or baby and that he would rather sign over his rights.)
November 3, 2008 – back together – November 11, 2008 broke up
November 16, 2008 – back together
November 18, 2008 – broke up .. made comment (I took as a threat) toward my mother
Saying “next time she gets in my way I will be so far up her ass she wont be able to walk for a week” (Not on this date but He had also made comments about my sister in law that he was going to tell her off and take care of things )
December 1, 2008 back –December 9, 2009 broke up
January 2, 2009 – back together January 4 broke up
January 18, 2009 – back together
January 27, 2009 – had meeting at work .. 9 am to 11 am .. left P to take care of baby.. upon my return there was a porn video on top of the DVD player .. he said that he had put baby in her room and just decided to put the video in.
February 6, 2009 – broke up/February 26, 2009 – back –March 4, 2009 – large fight March 8th gone
March 21, 2009 – back together March 29th broke up … P punched a dent into hood of my car
April 21, 2009 – back together April 24, 2009 broke up
May 7, 2009 – back together May 10, 2009 (mothers day) broke up
June 25, 2009 – back together
July 2, 2009 – huge fight … cussing and yelling at me in front of family –broke up
Again stated that he didn’t want anything to do with baby and he wished to sign over his rights. Received an email from his mom the next couple of days stating that she and his father would decide what was best for our situation.
July 11, 2009 – received several text messages on phone and email .. threats for me to watch my back … made police report CN ~~~42
July 14, 2009 – back together July 15, 2009 – broke up
July 18, 2009 – pregnancy test positive
July 20, 2009 – back together August 1, 2009 gone
September 5, 2009 – received several email and text threatening me and threatening to get me fired from work .
From September to November 3, 2009 back and forth weekly almost daily
October 19, 2009 – huge fight at P's house. Over his smoking weed. He stated he couldn’t wait to start smoking again and that he would rather continue smoking that to care or be a part of his childrens life. He stated he was a pot head and will always remain a pot head and he wasn’t going to give it up for anything. He would rather lose his family that to give it up.
October 26 to November 3 rd – found out he had several accounts for dating sites, Eharmony, plenty of fish, single net, flirt, as well as advertisements on craigslist looking to hook up
Very early after P coming back I found some text messages on his phone of sexual nature that he had been exchanging with a man from Robstown. The earliest advertisement I know of on craigslist was in January of 2009. He also advertised himself on his myspace account as single and looking. Listing women as a hobby of his. And several other sites he was a member of looking to hook up ...

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