Dream Works ... III

Before i begin, i must confess i have a fews fears. Some major phobeas. I have a couple of issues that are created when I am stressed (obsessive compulsions). Of my fears, I am scared of clowns and roaches, among a ton of other things. Those are the ones that are important here. The clown thing is not only because they are scary and ugly but they contribute to my fear analysis. Yes i have actually sat down and analyzed my fears (not by a professional or anything .. just my own thoughts) .. and only so i can try to over come them. (I dont like mascots, I dont like mimes, i prefer to talk in person than on the phone, and all of these are symtoms of having issues with people who are not who they pretend to be ............ hiding their true self ....... like clowns).

Roaches .. well they are just gross. They get into everything and .. eeewwwww.

Dream 1

On the night of August 29th I had a dream that really freaked me out.

As it begins I am walking in the food court looking for lunch. We are work and all of my friends and my sister are getting lunch and meeting at a group of tables to eat. I go to the cafeteria and there is nothing that i want. I go to McDonalds and they are closed with chains onthe doors. I look around and there is a bakery in the center of the room. i walk over and order a muffin and a bottle of water. As i wait i look towards the table to my friends and one of my friends is dressed as a clown. I am trying to figure out which friend it is. I recognize my sister and a few other people but i cant recall who the clown is. I get my muffin and water and was charged 18 bucks. i put the water back and just take the muffin and still paid 9 bucks for it. I walk to the table still trying to figure out who the clown is. She stands right beside me as i approach the table. The group starts to joke and laugh, the clown just stands to my right staring at me. She/He never talks or even laughs.

I wake up wonderin who the clown is.

Dream 2

Night of August 30th, i walked into my childhood bedroom and notice all the furniture was the same as back when i was young. Preparing for bed i turned off the light. I hear some noises and turn the light on again.. the walls are bare. i grab a flashlight equipt with a blue light and glance around the room. It is only with the special light that i can see the roaches on the wall. They are normal roaches but i notice they all have a white stripe painted on them. I start to kill them but without the help of the special light it is impossible to see. So i can only see one spot of the wall at a time. It seems that the roaches are in groups of three as i can tell, and a few of them are single. I move along the room killing these painted roaches. When they start getting bigger and bigger. Their bodies are covered in white paint and have blue and red colored stripes and dots on them. I am aware that they are painted up like clowns.

I finally got to the last roach and i realize that this one is the biggest of them all and even flying towards me. It misses me and lands on the wall. the body is completely white with big red dots and blue stripes on the wings. I attemt to kill it when it flies off the wall and towards my neck. It lands on me and crawls into my shirt.

That is when i woke up short of breath and completely freaked out. I could actually feel it crawling on me. I was even beginning to sweat.

I don't really know what to think of these dreams yet but i am pretty sure that the clown painting in both dreams is significant and the numbers could play a role is the meaning of each or both of these dreams.