So why did I stay around so long?

What is the saying, "keep your friends close, your enemies closer?" Well that is part of it. I didnt want to be the one to throw my little lamb to the wolf. Partly decided to keep trying to protect my daughter, and partly because I did love him. Or loved what I thought was him. In the last 16 months the truth of him as surely changed.
And now I have been threatened with a lawyer and will have to face the reality that custody battle is the future. I was trying to wait until my boy was born but I guess that just wont happen.
I can only hope that i dont have any more complications with my pregnancy than I already have .. its been a tough 23 weeks ...