My 2nd attempt

I am Not Dead

Death exhales his breath on me
He left his horrid stench
It will be months before I live again
But I know I am not dead
The blades of sin have pierced my skin
Allowing the blood of remorse seep down
The continuous beats of hatred
Echo without sound
I gasp for one more breath of air
As the evil is no longer fed
I am weakened to my knees
But I know I am not dead
Death corrupts my thoughts
It taints my every move
It’s no longer worth the fight
If there is nothing left to prove
At times I am over powered
Defeated by the wicked beast
Succumbing to the thoughts before me
He enjoys the psychological feast.
Tempted by the sweet illusions
Prisoner of the life I’ve led
Everyday slowly corrupting
But I know I am not dead.
The stench completely engulfs me
Masked by erroneous perception
Habitually the sin is committed,
Evil awaits his collection.
Erosion has begun with in me
Addictions cover the pain
The glimmering eyes have faded
They have sunken behind the shame.
Adventure opened the door
Compulsion controls my head
Fighting to break the cycle
I know I am not dead.
It will be months before I live again
Yearning for a ray of light
The war may be over
But there’s a battle still to fight.
Courage will lead me forward
Abandonment of the path I’ve led
Struggling for one more breath of air
For I know I am not dead.