my weekend...

Pt one: Life

On Saturday, we baptised my nephew. Three months old and now a part of the catholic church and has been welcomed with open arms into God's family. It was a great celebration. Lots of family to witness this event and then of coarse dinner to follow. I enjoy these times because I always get a chance to catch up with cousins and uncles, aunts and friends. Talk about life. How great it is, how wonderful it will be and how blessed we all are. Its just that way.
Baptism, like a birth has such a positive effect on everyone around us. Smiles all around.

Pt Two: Death

Sunday morning I got a call, a friend of mine that I have known for about 15 years passed away this weekend. He was HIV positive and was full blown for a few months. He also was infected with writhering desease. Suffered for 2 months an undescribable pain. as sad as it was for me, I couldn't imagine the slap of reality it had on a couple of my other friends. Both living positive. One was at work, the other I met up with at mass. They were not close to him at all. But the situation hits way to close to home. Jr couldnt be alone. He was left trying to reason with, well trying to reason with death.

He repeatedly said, "It didnt have to happen, maybe he didnt take the medicines, maybe he gave up. there are so many medicines out there .. its not a death sentence anymore."

I stayed with him, holding his hand. there are no words to say, we all know the reality of it. It is a death sentence, medicines and technology simply allow time for repeated denied appeals.

I took him to lunch, we talked, he cried. He couldnt be alone. We went to play pool. We talked and laughed and tried to forget life.

after i took him home i went back to church then to visit my dad.

Pt three: everything in between

So last night after talking to a friend of mine in Florida, i was given a warning. "Do not walk in the rain if even the slightest chance of storms, might get electricuted. Do not try new things, and do not assume all is safe with you."

Why the warning? In the last week or two, my luck has not been great. I dont believe in luck. I believe in Life. But lately it seems the sun is struggling to shine upon my life.

Dont take me wrong, i find it all pretty funny. cable got shut off, check was lost in the mail. No big deal. Electric got shut off, even though i paid the bill. My television almost blew up. I lost my debit card, and then lost the last of the cash i had on me. A friend of mine passed away and i have just found out that my dad is not well. Actually he hasnt been well for a while, but in the last week he has not been able to go through his dialysis because of low blood pressure which is causing alot of pressure on his body. His legs are completely numb which could lead to amputation if his circulation does not get better. And i dont even know what to say to him except to be strong and pray that God will get him though it all. Another friend of mine is falling into a depression and keeps asking for my help. I say laugh. A younger friend of mine is going through a break up with his partner, he wants my advise. Should he take back a cheating ex? I laugh. I know i wouldnt. My cousin is now entering a physcho jealous mode with her ex husband who is now wanting to get back with her but only after he got dumped by the girl he dumped his wife for. What should she do?? Laugh... all you can ever do is laugh. laugh at the craziness we put ourselves though. laugh at the fact that eveyone ask for my opinion when i am here single and wouldnt put up with anyones shit.

LAUGH!! thats all i can do when something so trivial occurs and everyone becomes blinded from the bigger issues. So my florida friend makes jokes and we laugh. Talk for an hour and my life is sunny again.